As I’ve been seeing all the year-end ‘best of’ lists pop up around the internet, I started trying to think about the media I’ve come across this year that has really stuck with me. The things that made me think “I have to tell people about this!” in the moment and the things that I actually did refer back to again and again as time went on. (Which is a good reminder that we are all just meat carriers for memes.) The list is short, and skewed toward the latter-half of the year (because memory).
- Hannah Gadsby’s Nanette
- Elizabeth Gilbert on vocation, Steven Tomlinson on callings
- ArtistsU’s Making Your Life as an Artist
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“When the market is our only metaphor” Anand Giridharadas on On Being (and/or “On Liberated Zones” by Ed Whitfield)
Then there is another list of media that I enjoyed and which also liberated or healed me this year: To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before, which came on the heels of Crazy Rich Asians, which followed the indomitable wake of Black Panther. In other ways: Mary Robinette Kowal’s Lady Astronaut series and Ngozi Ukazu’s Check, Please!
Then there are the quieter things from this year that I hold dear for myself, even if I never have the urge to tell you to seek them out…because who I am to know what you need?
- Moon: Letters, Maps, Poems by Jennifer S. Cheng
- Hchom by Marian Churchland
- this essay by Japanese Breakfast, this comic by Shing Yin Khor
But then I started thinking about all the background noise of my life. These are the things I read or watch regularly; these are the voices that are most constantly in my head; these are the ideas which my work is most in conversation with; these are the sites I type in by hand, from memory and then from habit. It is easy to forget them when we get to the “best of” lists because they’re just part of life now. And whether or not you discovered them this year or previously, they’re sure to still be around next year. Surprisingly, or perhaps unsurprisingly, this list is mostly people instead of any thing they may have created.
- All the artists whose Patreons I support are also on journeys which end up inspiring mine, but particularly these women this year: Amanda Palmer, Lucy Bellwood, Scout Tran, Yumi Sakugawa
- Essayists writing about writing: Alexander Chee, Mary Karr. Writers writing about loss: Tom Hart, Rebecca Solnit, Terry Tempest Williams
- Thirst Aid Kit with Bim and Nicole (this one also fits into the second list of ‘healing/liberating’ because this year has been esp. hard for female sexuality)
- Feminist Frequency, the Vlogbrothers, West Wing Weekly
- (and if I’m being honest, I’ve also watched a ton of Sorted Food this year)
- Jessica Abel’s creative productivity and Lillian Karabaic’s financial sense
- Eleanor Davis’s comics, Tessa Brunton’s zines, and Yotsuba! books from the library
- Stillblog (and even Orangette, though she has stopped actively writing there)
- Albert Kong (particularly his game about becoming a hive mind called the We-Ness)
- and the other people who are in and out of Mt Caz and creating it alongside us
- and the artists I find myself in support conversations with: Jessie Alsop, Aranea Push, and the folks of the POS- (Alisha, Brian, Nathan, Jen)
- and the ongoing conversations and relationships that make up Nuns & Nones
And by extension, because these have been in Albert’s background noise this year, they are also in mine: Working by Studs Terkel and A Pattern Language by Christoper Alexander, Sara Ishikawa, Murray Silverstein, et al.
Edit: I find myself coming back to add things to the list — which I will give myself permission to do — but also I want to remind myself that this is a lovely, incomplete snapshot of the background noise of 2018, as the now-outdated “Blogroll” in the sidebar is a lovely, incomplete snapshot of my background noise from 2009 (2011?).
In some ways, when I think back on my own work from this year, it also falls into this category of steady presence: more background noise than splashy launches. I will be writing a year’s retrospective for my tinyletter subscribers of the work that I did produce and release into the world in 2018, but it’s comforting that it will mostly be continuing: I will keep updating It’s Okay That It’s Not Okay page by page. I will keep writing Dear Beloved letters on a regular basis. I will keep being in conversation with people about our community’s tough questions and life’s life-y-ness. <3